my three ring circus

My last post was 2009.. here is an update

2011-11-19T14:50:00.000-08:00

The last post to this blog was right after a small melt down. I believe after that I moved in with a friend, Mila. That didn't go so well, luckily we were able to working things out and we are still friends. Oh yeah, I had another break down and decided to move back to Missouri, with my family. Thanks to my sister (Melissa) I was able to get an interview with the same company she worked at. I got the job, and became slightly successful. Not in that I accumulated a bunch of money, but I was finally stable. I had an apartment, I had a car. I was able to afford things I wanted, I still had problems here and there paying for things. I wasn't very good at managing my money. (I have gotten better at it though... I think)
Then I crashed my car, got a new car lost my job, lost my new car, made a quick decision. I was going back to Maryland 1month short of a year in Missouri.
That was 10 months ago.

Ok that's it for now, I'll tell you about the good stuff later.

- Teresa

missing home

2009-11-06T22:21:00.000-08:00

I'll start this out blunt and perfectly honest, i miss home. I miss everyone, and everything, thats all there is to it, i hope everyone who reads this knows i truly do miss you all. This life can be one stressful headache, and life with all of you was generally good. But things change, and they always will, just gotta keep moving forward with it. lots of Love -Teresa

waiting tables

2009-10-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

Like i jsut wrote i am now a waitress at a Mexican restaurant, and man the nerve of some people. One thing that drives me mad is when a someone get this great plate of food and it has something wrong with it, ok understandable you want a different one ok, then the manager is like oh they shouldn't have to pay for their meal because it had somthing wrong with it, ok thats also understandable, and great now the person only has to pay for their drink, which is probably only 3 dollars. Now what pisses me off is when that person just got a free meal, decides that its the servers fault that the cook fucked it up and leaves a fucking two dollar tip. So they just got to eat at a fine dinning restaurant for $5. WTF people! You got a meal for free the least you can do is make it up in the tip and be cool to your server. You don't have to be that stingy.

Problems

2009-10-28T09:09:00.000-07:00

Ok i haven't wrote on this sense August, when everything was going all good. Its funny how one month everything is fine and now for everything to be falling down hill. I mean on one side its still all good, but everything is so much more stressful, being independent can be tiring after awhile. I never got my job for comcast..long stupid story that i don't feel needs to be mentioned... I got a job at Chevey's (a Mexican bar and grill) i have been working there for about a month now, but its really not gettign the job done, of paying off my debts. So i applied at Verizon and yep got that job!!! I start my training this friday. I really hope it goes good because i have had it being broke and in debt all the time. I like imagined i would have everything paid off with in a month. its been two months and i haven't been able to put a dime down, because every time i accumulate a little bit of money something bad happens and i end up having to spend a fortune to pay it off! I have been so stressed out lately because i have just been so broke. now the people own money to are like ok, where our money you have been working for a whole month so?? where's the cash. And me im just like ready to blow up because i live with them they can see that i am struggling, ohh its just soo stressful. On top of that i have a waitressing job which means that i have to deal with dumb dumb ass people just dying to give me a hard time. i need to step it up a notch make some money and get out of this. Please for any of you that read this please pray for me, im burning up over here, life is just so hard and i am falling, i need help and i don't know who i can turn to.

Waterfalls....

2009-08-21T23:06:00.000-07:00

Beign left at home with nothing else better to do on a sunday, a friend Simon and I decided to do to this place called Savage Village. Its this place in a forest with a creek, i guess, with a bunch of waterfalls. Its soo pretty, when ther aren't a bunch of people the water is pretty clear and there are rushing fast waterfalls! The kind of waterfalls that you slide down and get a bunch of bruises from while doing it....well we went there and it was a bunch of fun, then Simon asks me if i think i can climb up the rushing waterfall, me knowing my own strength say no. so he calls me a quitter for not even trying! i know he was playing but still im not a quitter....yeah after trying for like 25min my legs were so tired and weak i realized that i was right to just assume in the first place that i couldn't do it, but that was after the waterfall had is way with me i got slammed against rocks shoved underwater and was pushed into people, and in the end i quite... OH! and while fighting with another waterfall i lost my ring my mother gave me! i was soo upset weep weep...but over all i had a good time, and after i bought stuff for sushi... one of the better parts of the whole day!

update ;D

2009-08-21T22:48:00.000-07:00

Ok sense being back in Maryland i have completely forgotten about picture taking, i guess its cause i know ill see everyone all the time hehe. But just for an update, for all those who care and don't know, i decided to move to Maryland, close to Baltimore. Its pretty crazy how everything has been moving soo fast, i got here and a week later i got a car, thanks to a few friends (Barney, and David) and it had been three weeks and i got a job!!
I still need to fix a few things on the car, and im waiting on some mail so i can get a Maryland license and im waiting on the job to call me in about final details.... so in the mean time i have nothing to do....so i spend most of my time having good old fun!! Going to the beach, to a few clubs, going to small lakes and getting my ass kicked by a few waterfalls (im still suffering from bruises on my legs), playing tons of volleyball, and chilling out at night. thats about it but its friday night i still have the rest of the weekend, and well the rest of the week :D fun fun. but in a small way im tired of it all and want to actually start working!but only in a small way, im sure that once i start working ill be wishing i had time off.

2009-08-14T12:47:00.000-07:00

Humor, is the spiciest condiment in the feast of existence.
So, laugh at your mistakes, but learn from them.
Joke over your troubles, but gather strength from them.
Make jest of your difficulties but over come them.

2009-08-14T12:16:00.000-07:00

Here are some more pics of the rest of my family...this is my niece, she is one of the twins.. i have no idea which one I'm holding yet their parents do not believe that they are identical..lol...
This picture is the other twin. IDK they look pretty much the same to me.....

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_______________________my oldest sister michelle____________________

all us girls at playoffs................................................ My cute little mother

__________________we all went to PlayOffs, took my little bro hehe_________________
Wow now there is a beautiful family heh (Juliet, Mel, Jesse Michelle, and me, we are missing like four more people arg........)

Missouri

2009-08-01T08:51:00.000-07:00

I just spent two weeks with my family in Missouri, in other words i was basically out of touch with the rest of the world for two weeks, my mom has no internet. I have to drive 12 miles just to get to some sort of internet cafe. Before i discovered this cafe in our little town they would drive 45 min out to the bigger city to a St. Louis Bread co., or to anyone else the "Panera," just to get to the internet. Hilarious!!! That is my reasoning for not updating this blog, i only had a 30 min. time slot to check my mail an buy plane tickets, no time to write....anyhow here are some pics.
A few days after i arrived my mom, my two sisters, Ryan, Melissa's boyfriend, Ryan, and Nathan, Ryan's friend all went to the winery. After our wine, we drove home, and being who we
are, and having a camera in hand we took pictures of our selves the whole trip home, here area few..

Ok thats enough of silly pics from the winery...now for silly pics somewhere else :D...

A few nights later, we went out to a night club.....The guy with us is Dan, it was his birthday...fun fun, we stayed out all night and crashed at his place, but there was a crazy chick sleeping there, enough said....I had so much fun with my sisters, when we get together world watch out!!

We also went to six flags, the really tall guy is my little brother, and the blondie is Mels boyfriend, and other little girl is my niece, Bobbisue.

We went out a few other times, with my other sister, its was fun. I love my family, and i had a great time seeing everyone....xoxoxo!!!

To "The Family"

2009-08-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

The Family
The Family, has and always will be a beautiful array of colorful people.
From when it started 40 years ago until today.
Each individual is different and original, but with so much in common.
Such as their burning desire to serve and love Jesus, their indescribable love for the lost, and this encompassing love that can over come all.
Their hearts are so simple, and loving its hard to fully understand.
That is what the "Family" is, the people.
Of course no one is perfect, so don't try to be, just live.
Don't get caught in the webbed trap of trying to obtain perfection, because it will never happen. Keep it simple, simply LOVE!!!

Good bye dear Family, I'll keep you in my prayers.
-Teresa

our GPS....

2009-06-25T20:11:00.000-07:00

Modern day technology is a pain in the assss!! I want all humans to always keep in mind that we are smarter than even the best robot because we have common sense. I have had a stressful three days with our "awesome" GPS. Day one was great it took us straight to the place i wanted to go, three hour drive to Norfolk, Virginia. The third day was ridiculous! We wanted to go to Wal-mart but the GPS sent us the opposite direction! So we drove around like idiot trying to find it in the shopping center. Oh and for my defence the Wal-mart was hidden....but i dont knwo why the GPS kept on sending us to Ross instead of the Wal-mart. It also doesnt say to turn with enough time, so i am constanly making mistakes and having to make fast action to get into the right lane or i have to turn around and "re-calculate" my direction...You have no idea how tired i am of hearing "re-calculating" ahh!! i feel like scraming each time it says it, especially when i already know where im going or if i decide to stop some where else...drives me mad.The voice on this this is annoying if it atleast had a better voice, and not some gross computer voice it might not be so bad.
and yes incaes you were wondering you can get lost with a GPS....

Virginia

2009-06-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

Im about to take off on a short road trip to Virginia...praying that i wont get lost on the way, concidering all the driving trouble i have been having getting lost... Hopefully ill make the 3 hour drive in 3 hours....

driving blunders....

2009-06-16T19:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday to my surprise my canning partner, that drives left. But the show must go on at least for another two weeks, so who is the appointed driver? Me!

Today was my first day driving in Maryland, first time really diving on the highway, and first time driving with out someone being there telling me what to do. I'm actually a good driver, i was able to drive in and out of the highways, switch lanes and everything, but i now realize that i am a bit directionally impaired, and can't follow directions on a map.
We took about an hour to find a light that was only 25mins away! Later when we ahd to move it took us an hour and a half to find the light that was about 20mins away. We would actually be going the right way, but somthing would make us think that we were going the wrong way to we would turn around, get back on the high way then realize we were going the right way and have to turn around again....or somtimes i was jsut in the wronge lane and it would take me off on an exit, and i would have no room to get on the highway, so i would have to drive down and find a place to turn around so that i could get back on the exit...it was quite stressful. On the way home was pretty bad too, we only messed up twice but both times took alot ot time to fix! In essance, we drove aroudn in circles all day today, but the good that came about was, we were two free chicks! Free to drive where ever we wanted, even though we got lost, free to choose where to go and how to get there, where to stop and on and on! It was so fun, even though we wasted time, it was well worth it. It was a good first day in charge!

will it rain

2009-06-05T12:12:00.000-07:00

Every night unless it has been pure sunshine we look up the weather, if it is going to rain we stay up later, make plans for our day off.. now even if it says showers its not necessarily going to rain unless its at least 60% precipitation or more... so last night we were checking the weather, sense it sprinkled today....
dawn looking at the weather report says "it might rain tomorrow"
"yeah? well, what is the precipitation?" i ask
"100%" LMAO!

All that to say i didn't even get out of bed this morning to make sure.

CANNING HUMOR

2009-06-05T11:34:00.000-07:00

these are a few funny things I get at the lights, i really should write them down, they are too good what people sometimes say, well here are the ones I remember...I'll keep updating as i remember

I walk to the first car, wave at the driver, and motion to my bucket (on the bucket is a brief explanation of why we are there). It was two young boys about 16 years old...the driver rolls down his window and stares. So this time i ask verbally "like to help out?" more staring, finally he says "what can i do for you?"(a bit puzzled) i explain, finally he gets it and jumps into action wiggling around trying to find some money! It was so cute, his friends ended up breaking a 20...the power of a big smile :D.

I walk over to a SUV packed with young boys none of them looking like they can legally drive, and i ask liek i always do..they all scramble for change, adn are giving me there quarters when the kid in the passenger side shows me a bag full of goldfish! and asks if i want one of them.. i had just started my dad and said of course not i dont want to carry a bg full of fish for the next three hours..then the kids says oh well thats ok we are just going to blow them up! WHAT!! i exclaim, "fine i'll take them" but they had already decided that blowing them up was funner than giving them to me...so they drove away...three hours later they drive by again..showing me that they had bought even more fish! now i only have half an hour to go so i tell them "ok i can take soem fish now" They tell me "no, no we want to blow them up" i say ok ill give you a dollar for a bag. they were soo excited sense apperently they only paid 60 cents for each bag so they gave me a bag of six fish...i decided to give them to dawn's kids. (We went and bought a tank and everything for them, Three are still alive to this day!)

The other day I (with my big smile) walk up to a fancy car and ask if the guy wants to help out. He looks at me and then at my bucket and says "why should i help?" "well," i start to explain,"some people really like helping out a good cause...(i was being a bit goofy that day..) some people like the feeling of waking up the next morning feeling like they helped someone," and on i rambled for a while when he interrupted me saying "What I ment was why should i help you when the picture on your bucket is of two white kids!!" (he was Indian i think) "oh these kids are Romanian!" i announce, and then explain out work a bit. he could care less he says "yeah right well i would help you if you changed the picture!" by then i was upset he was seriously rude and wasting my time, so i looked him straight in the eyes and said "whatever don't think you would help out, ne matter what picture i had on here!" the guy was so baffled he didn't know what to say. So i walked off, by then the light was green anyway...ugh the nerve of some people.

I hate it when people wast my time on the lights, i only have about 2 min to reach at least 40 cars, and i have someone at the front of the light asking me 50 questions. "what church are associated with?" "whats the name of yoru church?" "where in Maryland are you located?" "do you know John 3:16?" "why are you out here?" "why arn't you located in here?" "why arn't you helping the poeple that live here?"...and then after i explain all they either give me a hand full of pennies or they say.."well sense its not going directly to help our country i don't want to help" "well that's nice but i help though my church" "hmm well then no" "well i dont believe you?" AHHH!! thank you for wasting my time!!(is what i feel like shouting, but instead i keep smiling)

Other people that wast my time are the guys.."hey girl whats your name?" "are you married?" "can i ge toyur number?" "can you call your friend over here?" "can i have your number, or your friends number?" "damn girl you fine, why are you out here" "your getting paid to get a tan" "you me on the beach" I always have somthing to say to these time wasters, its jsut such a shame that none of these guys are ever that hot:(.

more from new york

2009-06-01T19:47:00.000-07:00

ok here are some more random pics from new york this is the first night we went out. Keep im mind that this was after a day of canning and a five hour drive and some how we all forgot about makeup, so cut us some slack for looking like crap. first pic is in front of some monument from the 911 attack. This other one is of Dawn and our tour guide (mike) that put us up in his place. They were touching the brass bull's balls! we even got on top and rode the bull. Here are some other pics from time square...That was awesome! The lights the movement all the energy, and us dumb ass tourist taking a but load of pictures..lol. The one on the bottom, is Mike, dawn and I, at the first bar we went to..all of us drinking some, form of beer...i was on the edge, taking a bunch of pics, with Pablo and Vi..while the other three were busy talking about God knows what..we were taking dumb pics....So to the rgith you have Pablo and Vi. (Pablo is the one beign licked, Vi is the one in the back ground...JK!)

new york, new york

2009-05-29T19:29:00.000-07:00

New York, the concrete jungle...who ever said that was not kidding.

Who visits a state five hours away from New York and doesn't drop by for a visit? Pablo, Vi, Dawn, and I, had the vary same feelings, so we planned a trip. Just the planning was stressful, especially when the other half of your people(the half with the car) is not around to help plan, and don't answer their phone..no comment. But never the less off we went, i hooked us up with a friend to stay with and as soon as we arrived he took us out!
The two other girls were hilarious, you know those classic tourist oohing and awing at everything they see? Well that was them. "OMG! This is the same park from 'you got mail' Ahh!!!"and " i think this was in the one movie with that one guy.." Good thing i went with them, i realized I'm a boring tourist, i try to blend in.
That night we went to Time Square, we rubbed the bulls brass balls, and we went to a few bars, not to mention the ferry we took to get to the city. Fun stuff, out tourist guide had a hang over all the next day...

We only had one day to see New York, because I'm this hard core canner that can't miss more than one day. So we wanted to squeeze in everything! But of course that was unrealistic (try telling that to a tourist). We did go to the statue of liberty...and took tons of pictures. The statue its self was closed so we couldn't go inside but we found a grassy area on Liberty Island, and took pics! All the photos of the Statue of Liberty were taken in the ferry to get to the island, we basically paid $12.50 each to sit in the grass and take pictures.. but it was fun.
We also ate the classic new york hot dog for lunch, we literally wanted the whole new york experience, including "I love New York" T-shirts...can you really blame us? Well our two day trip was ending that same night so we had to make sure we had our buss tickets to get back -our drivers were going else where...So to get to the station we had to take the metro. Our first metro, ride(i was silently waiting for someone to rob us)! We had to buy all day pass cards so we could freely hop from one train to the other. I'm not going to get into the details of how we had to buy our tickets, but it was dramatic and annoying... but at the station across the street or close by was (drum roll) the Majestic Theater! But i was broke, i was the only one with hardly any money as i was not raising fund for my self, and my projects, but they were, so i was the only one limited on funds....so they went and saw "the Phantom of the Opera!" and i waited out side for a friend to drop me off with another friend to go watch a movie...we shall skip the details..so they went to Central Park, the only place i wanted to go to, but they were in New York and i was now out side of the city killing time. So while i killed time waiting, they spent time, and met up with us late. So Dawn (the pretty Indian girl in the pics) and I ran like chickens to catch the ferry to take the metro to get to the station to buy our tickets to get to our bus. Now you have to picture this properly I was running in high heels with an overly huge, heavy bag..(we had to bring our own blowup mattress) We were in the metro at 1am..Dawn happily states "Oh good there aren't a lot of people now.." "yeah," i say back,"only one guy and his friends to rob us, rape us and leave us in a corner to die.."(i was being a bit dramatic) but we were three feet from some, i don't know what to call this guy, a homeless is the best word. He was sleeping on the bench, and i don't know why we decided to sit at the same one. Well we ran like mad to the station asking where to go, we were supposed to get there an hour before the bus left to get our tickets (we bought them online at a burger king..), and we got to the ticket booth with literaly 6 min until boarding. We luckily got our tickets waited in line for about 45 seconds and got on our bus ha!

Dawn and I leaving New York in our bus at 1:45 in the morning leaving New York....
THE END

i can be anything!

2009-05-28T20:50:00.000-07:00

Ok I'm just getting started on my blog so get over the fact that all i have is lyrics of other people, they are great songs....that simply make me smile... by the way this is called "Grace Kelly" by Mika.

I wanna talk to you.
(The last time we talked Mr. Smith
you reduced me to tears.
I promise you that wont happen again)

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?
I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
guess Im a little bit shy
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
mmm mmm
But all her looks were too sad
ahh ahh
So I tried a little Freddie
MMM MMM
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more

Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!

(getting angry doesnt solve anything)

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink

Why dont you like me
Why dont you like me
Why dont you like yourself?

Should I bend over?
Should I look older
just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
mmm mmm
But all her looks were too sad
ahh ahh
So I tried a little Freddie
MMM MMM
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
hey!
But you only want what everybody else says you should want,
you want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like

Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
walk out the door!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more

Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
walk out the door!
ooooooooooh ooh oooooooh
waaa wow

(Humphrey we're leaving)

KACHINGA!!

ok i love the song how its sung more than the lyrics, so listen to it...

what if...?

2009-05-28T20:42:00.000-07:00

This is a song by Nickleback, with awesome powerful lyrics, think about it, if today was your last day....

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

act one

2009-05-18T21:02:00.000-07:00

I started my blog at 12 in the morning after a long day, and so after a few busy days and nights i am now giving you my first post....welcome to my blog.